sickness & he departed

He was sick. We knew it was better for him to go. Not saying that we dont love him. I would say if i love him i would prefer him to go. To me its pointless if i love him and seeing him suffering to a stage where he calls for his mother, If only i was back home to see the scene. I called my parents to say if he has to go without me at his side or vice versa i would be happy because i had spend my entire time with him. By this i have no regrets by his depart.

While doing my devotion, my phone rang.

My mobile rang twice for i could not answer the first ring. What passed through my mind was , was his time up !. Indeed it was his time. He passes away on the 29 May 2007 at 7.45 pm.I ended the call with a solemn goodbye. Now it was only me cuddling my pillow. Such a saunter and idle moment for me.The darkenss of my room has left me point blank and clueless. I tossed on the bed thinking what does the future hold for my maternal family.My mind was foggy that i decided to walk to Darling Harbor and just pause the thoughts of him and capture the scenic view of Darling Harbor. I decided to walked myself home and bring myself to bed whether my body or mind wants too.

30 th May 2007 at 2.20 pm i was already in the plane waiting to reach home. Excited to go home whether it is for him,shopping,food or etc. I reached the funeral parlor at 11.45 pm. I paid respect and will be an Australian Graduate for he was one. There were many things that i would like to say him when he was in the coffin. All i could say was by me becoming an Australian Graduate will make you proud.

On the last day, tears could not stop from the eyes of the family members when we place some fragrance stick aroud the coffin.When we reach the Memorial Park for the crematorium, it was a real silent,solemn,saunter climax when we saw his coffin going into the chambers for cremation process. As we see the doors touching the ground slowly we could not help but teared.

My grandfather .. infinity words to describe him.

Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives. – A. Sachs.