Memory according to Dictionary.com is ‘ The mental capacity or faculty of retaining, reviewing facts, events and impression etc of recalling or recognizing previous experiences’. History, ‘A continuous, systematic, narrative of past events as relating to a particular people, country, period, fir it is usually is a series or a chronicle’.
I have been capturing images of people, images, views, throughout 22 years and on going. At times, I would like to erase my old history and memories of my younger life. The people who I once though was good but opposite. All the mistake that I did, all the unspoken words which I never spoke but in my heart, would like to take back the words which I hurt people, those lies I said (younger), those bad habits that I cultivated from god knows where, At times, when I watch movie – a person going through a trauma of losing memory, it is a real challenge to regain those lost memories and history.
I would like to erase my memories. If only I could see all my 22 years in a flash. I will play my whole life. Watch it, delete which ever part which I do not wish to include in my memoirs. It is like I am editing my life. How cool is that. I am grateful that I have more good memories to weigh with the bad memories. Everyday I have memory of something that I like to cherish and would like delete. Just like there is something that we bring groceries home daily and also trashes that we dispose daily. At times, I wish if my memory and history was like the groceries.
The moment I am awake, it is a memory which I capture that will be stored in my brain regardless is it important or normal. It is interesting to note that seeing is part of the human body sense but how many of us control our seeing. It is true that we control our body but the images that we want to see is control by our mind. Everything that we see, feel, taste, touch and listen is govern and revolve in our mind and that include the though that we are thinking.
Memory is such a incredible invention of God. The ability capacity of storing is infinity, never ending. It has the ability flash back, recall, recapture, store sub consciousness thought and etc. Right now in technology, the biggest external hard disc storage is 1 trillion byte. In future 1 trillion byte isn’t enough to store date. As the gigabyte for storage hard disc increases, I wonder what the fraction or the percentage we use in our memory. It is so easy to check the availability space vacant in the external storage hard disc. If only this principle was easy accessible to us to glimpse how much have we have stored in.
Another captivating thought about memory is that the mind has the ability to capture images in the highest quality of any camera mega pixel. The ability of the eye to snap an image and send it to the memory is also called as Camera Eye. Despite of having the uttermost quality pixel, care should be taken to protect the eye. Memory is also called as Mind’s Eye. Some of the difference that the Camera Eye and Mind’s Eye does not have is the ability to Zoom. The only way for us to store a zoom image in our memory is by putting some effort in walking towards the object. A little effort is needed here to produce unchanging remembrance.
My all time favourite about Memory is that I don’t have to do a back up or have a plan B. But because of that, I live each day with faith knowing that my memory will lead me all the way to my last breath and the last time. Maybe I can have a back up in pictures but is not everything that I can back up.
Despite of all the advantages of the Human Memory, the possibility of deleting the memory that I do not want is clearly impossible. How ironic!
