Brother ?

If only I had a brother. Older brother. Will tell him all my frustration, weird things about guys. Shop for him clothes. I like shopping for guys clothes. Go shopping with him, walk with him talking about the olden days when we were both fighting. What kind of wive, future and etc he wants. He advising me on guys. Will be telling each other all the weird things that the opposite sex do and feel. How funny. Being accountability to him. Telling him that I am coming back home late. Calling me when I am not back yet. Waiting for my brother after class or work. Lying down on the bed with him lisening to U2, Oasis and etc.Taking care of each other when we fall sick. Making the house messy when Mum and Dad is not at home, going travelling together, driving each other around, teaching each other in any subject. If you have a sibling. You will be like so what ! But for me these are precious moment that I would like to have with my elder brother. At times, I envy my cousin for she has an older brother who loves her much. At times I would like to be in her shoe. The question is will I ever ? Parents are definately there for me but having a brother is something that I cannot explain. I would like to know how it feels like to share stuff with him. Sleeping with my brother, (I don’t think there is anything wrong sleeping with my own brother). My parents once asked me If I would like to have a brother. I answered rudely ‘NO’. Maybe I was naive and I want everything that my parents has to be given to me. At this moment, having a brother is way better then whatever property my parents are leaving them behind. Posessions, assets is something I can earn but can I ever earn to have a brother ? To me , not even my close guy friend or a boyfriend can replace the place of my brother. Maybe.. it is possible and Maybe not too. I will make sure that I will my child will have either a brother or a sister for I do not want them to follow my foot steps. I miss you , Brother

Wee’s funny

These days, I have friends telling me that I am funny. At times I will retaliate and say so now,’ Who is funny ?’. Sometimes to come to think about it I am funny. I can just laugh at myself when no one is laughing and nothing funny to laugh at. I think funniness is my uniqueness. It is something that I should and will embrace. Being funny is not a negative. My funniness can brighten someone’s day or in any other way. I don’t recall me being funny back home. I became funny when I step in Australian soil. I don’t know what is changing. Even my cousin is noticing it though we are far away .If she can tell via msn then what else my parents and friends will think when I am back home It is going to be funny.  I can be funny and lame at times. Today in class I was just on roll ..as (funny as I can be ) and I was making everyone surrounding me a night mare. At what is worse, I was laughing to myself and everyone was like . .  What is wrong with you. My close friend Ji Min was . . are you okay. I know I am okay by heart but people will perceive me that I am insane. I guess my funniness is making me calm, relax and living each day and worrying that day only. I do not know what I started to be funny but I do not wish to let go my funniness if it is making someone happy.