Monthly Archives: April 2009

After two weeks holidays, moving in and out. I would really like to sleep in instead of sitting in bed with doing my assingment but listening to some deep thoughts music. If only it was a cold winter monday, I would love to be lying in bed listening to Coldplay, Damien Rice, Lifehouse, Lisa Hanningan, Sarah McLachan, Angus and Julia Stones and etc or maybe reading. Perhaps even holding and sipping a Hot mug of Green Tea. At 12 noon, I will be preparing to go to class. Unfortunately. Sigh !

Yesterday. Oh don’t even mention it. I started work at 6.30 am. I woke up at 5.45 am. I finish work at 1 pm. At 2 pm – 3.30 pm, I had office meeting. At 4.15 pm, I went to Railway Square to settle some stuff. 6 pm, I rush to Broadway for my friend’s birthday. I came back home at 10.30 pm. I went to bed at 11.45 pm. All in all, I went out for 18 hours. And now, it is the next day and I still need Sleep. Z.z.z.z.

Having to move twice within a month is killing me. Physical and Mentally. Having no internet at home is the worse state of mind when I am at home. Internet is not everything to me. But when there are assignments to complete, internet at home is a necessity. With no assignment, I don’t really care about Internet because I occupy my time by reading. My one month without Internet takes my energy to the toll. Always going to the internet cafe researching and etc. Finally, I am at home using the internet. The only bad thing is that I am having headache and I start work at 6.30 am and I have 2 assignment to hand in on Monday. That’s not very good after all.

While writting my previous post, I remember this song by John Mayer ‘ Stop this train and The Heart of Life’. I relate it to QLC.

Stop this train

No, I’m not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
But I just can’t sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly, won’t someone stop this train?

Don’t know how else to say it
Don’t want to see my parents go
One generation’s length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly, won’t someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said “help me understand”
He said “turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate”

“Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
And don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train”

Once in awhile, when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
Till you cry when you’re driving away in the dark
Singing

The Heart of Life

I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There’s things you need to hear
so turn off your tears
and listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it wont all go the way
it should
but I know the heart of life is good

You know it’s nothin’ new
bad news never had good timing
then the circle of your friends
will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
no it won’t all go the way
it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
fear is a friend who is
misunderstood
but I know the heart of life is good
I know it’s good, I know it’s good
oh i know it’s good

oh i do i do i do

oh i know its good

Maybe I was one of the fools to be in April. I don’t know who to write and express everthing. Once more, I look to Coldplay for solitude. All these songs has a deep commotion in my heart – Trouble, Things I don’t understand, Lost, Have you see the world, Fix you, Careful where you stand,

Trouble . .
O no, I see,
A spider web is tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I’d said.

O no, what’s this?
A spider web, and I’m caught in the middle,
So I turn to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I’ve done,

And I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
And oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

O no, I see,
A spider web and it’s me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here am I in my little bubble,

Singing I, I never meant to cause you trouble,
And I, I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
What if i got it wrong

Things that I don’t understand . .

How tides control the sea, and what becomes of me
How little things can slip out of your hands
How often people change, not to remain the same
Why things don’t always turn out as you plan

These are things that I don’t understand
Yeah, these are things that I don’t understand

I can’t, and I can’t decide
Wrong, oh my wrong from right
Day, oh my day from night
Dark, oh my dark from light
I live, but I love this life

How infinite is space, and who decides your fate
Why everything will dissolve into sand
How to avoid defeat, when truth and fiction meet
Why nothing ever turns out as you plan

These are things that I don’t understand
Yeah, these are things that I don’t understand

I can , and I can’t decide
Wrong, oh my wrong from right
Day, oh my day from night

Lost . .

Just because I’m losing
Doesn’t mean I’m lost
Doesn’t mean I’ll stop
Doesn’t mean I’m across

Just because I’m hurting
Doesn’t mean I’m hurt
Doesn’t mean I didn’t get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I’ve tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off…

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn’t mean you’ve won
‘Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you’ll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off

How you see the world . .

Are you missing something
Looking for something
Tired of everything
Searching and Struggling
Are you worried about it
Do you want to talk about it
Oh, you are gonna get it right some day

There is so much be scared of
And not much that makes sense of
Are you running in a circle
You can’t be too careful
And you can’t relate it
Cause, it’s complicated
Oh, you are gonna get it right sometime

I am glad that Autumn finally know it is time. I am happy. Autumn and Winter is my favourite season. The slight chill and cloudy weather. Thats soothing for me. Perfect to sleep. Sit down thinking in deep thoughts while holding a glass of hot Green Tea is what I like to embrace the cold season. My wardrobe is starting to change. I packed the spring/summer clothes and hang Autumn/Winter clothes. Here I am wondering how cold will this winter be ?